Future and commitment -----Express yourself  #23 !!!!

The first photograph displays a sea shore where the kids have curiously drawn two beautiful HEARTS  on a wet land.And precisely that's the point where , me and my husband  are focused at the moment --committed to live well, do well ,stay well for the future !!!

It was a saturday afternoon in 2005 , a feeling of extreme indigestion and fatigue gripped me while I was happily having my afternoon siesta. Gradually nausea, vomitting and fainting made things worse and I was taken to a  hospital nearby . By the time I reached the hospital , things got  worse ; a tremendous pain on my back and tightness on my chest crippled me almost to death . I was immediately shifted to the iccu . My shy and quiet  daughter stood by the side of her father outside the iccu . I realised things were not right and got alarmed and nervous  looking at my hubby , who was biting his nails !! He looked alert , since he knew the tiniest details . He started pacing outside the waiting hall. After a little while , a cardiologist came and I was wheeled  into a cath-lab straight away, before I could realise what was happening , I was under a scanner. My interest in reading medical journals helped me to realise that the doc was preparing me for a ballooning session .I was to be embellished with an extremely expensive  spring called  "a stent"   in my heart  ; the stent is normally pushed in through the artery and is delicately placed  somewhere along the area where a blockage is detected   .It needs skillful hands to put that little diamond in there ...and of course luck has to stand by your side to have a safe catherisation !!! Till then,  I  didn't realise that I was having a heart attack. My husband had a history  of ischemic heart and in his case it wasn't an attack , to prevent future problems the docs got  the angioplasty done in 2001. I thought it to be a similar case. I kept chatting and yapping with the friendly doc. The doctor kept working with such calm skill , his movement focused and precise.The moment the balloon went inside and was bloated...I felt instantly relieved !! It was almost like a relief felt at the labour room after having pushed a child out  !! A nurse was holding my hand and my body was in the process of recuperation ; the nurse was trying to keep my emotions in check. I started feeling sleepy ---the silence in the room was so deep and encompassing that I felt like bloating to a new height.A fresh new lease of life and happiness was granted to this couple ! Amen.

Now, both of us are heart patients with expensive stents  in our red hearts......true love-birds...with wounded  hearts  for each other ! He lives with a king of hearts and me with a queen of hearts !!!

To us,  committment in love is a little more than a display of physical interdependence. You make your partner feel the nearness with a pledge of mutual understanding : there ought to be moments when you can touch and feel such fantastic understanding without actually saying it in so many words .In our case, the pledge is : ' Atta boy / Atta gal , remain healthy , cut out all frills and lead a simple and a meaningful life !!'

 The future still  looks nice and bright to both of us  . We are committed to each other and have vowed to keep ourselves  fit by  maintaining a strict regime for the rest of our lives! He still has a few more years  to go before he retires from his services. And I also have unscheduled years to blog !